The biggest thing I love about Twilight –
I know,
I just outed myself as a fan of the series,
both the books and
the movies –
is that Bella finds her place in the world.
[Spoiler alert for anyone
who hasn’t bothered
to read or watch it yet.
P.S. Shame on you.]
Past the epic love story,
which it is,
and the triangle –
because apparently there always
has to be a triangle –
devotion to family,
both blood and adoptive,
adventure and exhilaration,
which is also true,
and the battles against
what is originally perceived to be evil
and against what emerges as actual evil,
there is Bella.
There’s ordinary Bella,
who has always felt out of place
and out of step,
and trips and stumbles
through her life.
<Cough, cough.>
Yeah,
I can definitely identify
with the ordinary
nobody.
In this case,
because it is a fantastical
fictional
book and movie series,
of course she eventually
gets the guy she loves,
and
gets to be beautiful
and strong
and immortal with him
for forever.
But what really hits me
is that she also finds
who she was actually meant to be.
She becomes
who she was supposed to be all along.
She finds her place.
She has her love with her, yes,
but she also discovers that place
as if she is a whole,
by herself,
separate
and
conjoined with him
at the same time.
She is meant to be
with him
but she is also
meant to be
who she was designed to be
all by herself.
I long to grow
with
and
toward
my Jeff
as we grow older together
but I also want
to grow
as me,
as who He created me to be
and maybe
someday
find my place too.
