What do you do to plug yourself in –
recharge?
It is a (seemingly) simple,
valid question
that should have a simple answer.
(Right?)
I hate that question.
The last time I was asked,
I went into counseling.
Not entirely because of the question itself,
but it was part of the equation.
Hearing it asked again,
I hated it just as much as before –
because I still don’t have any answers.
Am I oblivious to myself?
Am I a complete idiot?
I can throw out options
that worked in the past
but
if I try to repeat a scenario,
it rarely works the same way.
Are there some things that tend to help?
I think so.
Can I trust that they would work again?
Not at all.
No pattern has been designated yet.
I can’t count on anything.
And even patterns
change.