Should I keep doing this?
There is no
cohesive theme
for anyone else
to follow.
It’s not directed toward
a particular audience.
It’s a jumbled mess
of thoughts –
most of which
are probably unimportant.
But that has also been
kind of the point.
My head
is a mess.
So I’m training myself
to put some of the pieces
together
recognize patterns
figure out
some sort of
cohesion
sometimes
and finish
something
when nothing
seems ready
or good enough
because it never is.
It’s never quite perfect
and sometimes nowhere close.
But I’m trying to call some things
finished
anyway.
This space was designed
to push myself
to put endings on things –
writing
drawing
painting
photography –
even though
I’m still learning
all of it
and
even if
no one else
cares.
Maybe it’s
a silly medium
to work through
my natural tendency
to start
a lot of fun things
that I rarely finish,
but maybe
that’s reason enough
at least for now
whether anyone else
sees it
or not
and even if
it’s doomed
to irrelevance.