Returning

Returning
   to my teenage bedroom
       makes me
         want to open the window
               and crawl out on the roof,
                      lie down
               and look at the sky
                                     stars
                                     clouds
                    God created –
                       the God
                          I didn’t even really believe in,
                                yet –
               and listen to the world
                  one song at a time,
                     while contemplating life
                                            and death
                                            and everything
                                                I don’t understand
                                                     about people.
                                                     Or anything else,
                                                         really.

I’m not even sure
   I understand more now
     than I did then.

Maybe I am just willing
   to acknowledge
     that what I do know for sure
                 is I know very little.