Ponder

My life always feels
          rushed
   and pushed
          packed
   and crammed
                   and overwhelming.

I never feel like
   I can catch up
               enough
        to check off the list
        or step back
               to evaluate
        or take some time
               to be
               to think
               to ponder
        and slow down enough
               to wander
                     and
                   wonder
                    why certain words rhyme
                        when they shouldn’t
                              and others don’t
                        when they seem like
                                  they would.

There is always
     too much to do
     too much that is required of me
              work to be done
              chores to complete
              errands to run
              people to see
       and books to read
       and too much
              in my head
                that I’m always trying
                      to figure out
                         how to get out.

And ‘tis the season
      of much
            and
          more
            and
          overdoing
                   beyond excess.

But it never stops
                 finishes
                 concludes
     even when the season goes
             or returns
             or leaves again.