I don’t know how to be
anything
anymore.
I don’t know how to be.
I gave
everything
to him
and he gave up
on me.
For 14 years
and three kids
he was there
but not
there.
We were
we
but never really
us.
I thought
we were
so much more
than we
turned out to be.
He wanted out
but he was never
actually in.
And now I wonder
if any of it
was even real.