No, not the strange
or
skin-crawling kind.
Supplies.
Colors
pencils
paints
pastels
words
charcoal that manages to get on everything
and never wash off your fingers.
I’ve mostly been using watercolors lately,
because that’s what I have
stored in the upstairs closet
in the guest room.
Jeff looked at what I was trying to create
and said
I was using the wrong medium for it.
How was I to know
there was even a right one?
Since nothing actually translates
from my brain
to the blank piece of paper –
not in the way
I see it in my head anyway.
I’ve always admired art
and the artists who create it,
who can make art
look like something real
or imaginary
or beautiful.
or inspiring.
Maybe he’s right.
He usually is.
Maybe I’ve been using
the wrong mediums.
I’m willing to learn
and branch out
and try new things.
But for this moment,
it feels good
to even attempt
to create
something,
even if
it’s not at all like
what I see
behind my eyes.