Wondering

He is left
  questioning everything
          caught
          between
       the anger
       the yelling
       the screams
       the uncertainty
          invading every day.

He is left
  searching
     for any stability
        in the chaos and
                 intense silence
                    between
                 the screams.

He is left
  alone
     forced back
        and forth
        and back –
          indefinitely,
     forced to become a man
        at five years old
     forced to choose,
          yet left
       with an impossible choice.

He is left
  wondering
     if he is loved
        by anyone.
  Not even sure
     if this Jesus
        this God
        this possible Savior
           is out there,
     he is left
       with a small hope,
           and he prays
             to the only one
           who might even hear him
                  anymore.


Left Series: Part 4