After the words you spoke
the choices you made and
the lies you told
as you betrayed her,
how am I supposed to
be there for you now?
I don’t know how
to even be your friend right now
much less the best way
to care for you and
speak consistent truth to you
at the same time,
rather than just
scream at you
punch your face in and
kick you in the nuts
hard.
It would be so worth it
if I could make you see
how selfish you are
how stupid your decisions are
how walking out on your family
is never going to be okay.
You think you’re smart,
that you know better
than what everyone
who cares for you
is telling you.
But you’ve rejected
basic
simple
intrinsic knowledge
that no one
should ever have to explain to you.
You don’t trust it
or us
over the noise of culture
telling you to just do what makes you happy,
even if happy
only lasts the night.
So you did
what you thought
would make you happy.
You deserted your family
and became a weekend dad,
posting pictures
of your seemingly perfect life
that no longer has your wife in it,
spending the rest of your time
with all those women
you left your family for,
rather than bother to
keep your word
do the work and
remain faithful
to the one you chose
and who chose you
first.
You’re only listening
to what you want to hear.
You’re muting God
because you don’t like what He says,
because you know full well
that what you are doing
is wrong,
but you don’t want to feel it
don’t want to think about it
don’t want to acknowledge it
or you would have to
give up your new lifestyle
and admit you don’t actually know
everything,
and your pride
is worth more to you
than your marriage.
Now your daughter sees
what she should expect
from her future husband:
lie after lie
broken vows
and
abandonment.
Now your son sees
that it’s okay to break his promises
if he feels like it
and blame his bad behavior
on anyone but himself.
That’s what Daddy does.
And what happens
after all of this
when you realize
you still aren’t happy?