I hate watching you
go through this,
not able to fix it
and
not able to punch him
for putting you
here.
I have been thinking of you
praying for you
and
praying for him.
It’s just hard
because it hurts
to think of
you and him
and
you without him.
Such a horrible excuse
not to stay in touch
so well with you,
since I’m not you
and
I really have no idea
how it feels
to be in your place.
Sometimes
it seems like
I have pushed
too much
to be involved
to stay connected,
so I pull back –
maybe too far.
And I wonder
if you feel like
I’ve even been there
for you
at all.