Jackhammer

Fi-nal-ly.

The jackhammer
          stopped.

After 7 1/2 hours
   of it P
         O
         U
         N
         D
         I
         N
         G
   the asphalt
     outside our window,
               I can hear
                  the quiet.

It sounds like still,
                  calm breathing.

The throbbing inside my head
   is starting to dull.
The reverberation
   is lessening.

The loud quiet
                 pushed through –
          once it was actually allowed to, of course –
     until it permeated everything
        and became
           the only thing here.

I tend to fill the small silences
   I do have
         with music
            or words
                conversations
            or movies
               out of enjoyment
                       preference
                       routine
                       familiarity
                          or
                       [insert DSM* diagnosis here].

Now
   I am thankful
          grateful
      to just listen
              to the high decibel
                   stillness
         because it won’t be long
            until the tick-tocking clock
                          finds its way in
                   the dog across the street
                          barks over it
                   the high school marching band
                          drums its way
                             into every brain cell
          and I again forget
               what the quiet sounds like.

 

*Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders