(Chroni)logical

I don’t
     always write
            or share
                  as things happen.

I tend to
            p  r  o  c  e  s  s
     so it’s not always
           (chroni)logical,
     and the
          senses
     or the
          sense
              may get
                                lost
                                        somewhere.

Sometimes it’s me
      trying to make
          sense
              of the
                t
            a
              n
                    g
                 l
              e
                       d
                  thoughts
                        I can’t
                             unwind.

I can’t always
  unscramble
  everything
     or fully
  track myself –
        which may make me
            more screwed up
                    than they even have a name for,
                although if they have a name,
                       I’m not sure
                       I’m ready to know it
                              yet.

But it’s real
          true
    and probably more
          raw
     than I actually want to share.

So I’m still trying
         still learning
         still growing.
               (I think.)

And
     maybe
        somehow
        someone
            can glean
        something
                from my mess.
     Maybe even me.