Prodding

Is this really a good idea?
Am I jumping in
             alert and
             prepared
     or carelessly running
                      tripping over my better judgment
                              into something
                                     I should just leave
                                               alone?

I expected difficulty
              hurdles
              frustration.
I probably should have expected
              wavering
              second-guessing
              overthinking.

I feel a prodding
     to do this
          from outside of me.
But I need to make sure
     my motives are good –
          because I would
                  have to put
                      myself
                              out there,
          but I don’t want it to be
                      about me.