Everything seems
switched
upside-down
backward
twisted.
I am
an amateur.
I am
new at this.
I am
the beginner.
It’s probably
not as big a deal
as it is in my head
and in every thought
that enters my head.
I am not always so great at rejection
or critique
or criticism
or entirely being ignored
when I finally put myself out there.
I am aware
of all that I have a difficult time with.
Am I
overthinking this?
It seems
different
being on the other end.
I am even more
out of place
than usual.