I think
in the context
it was okay
useful
constructive.
But…
There is always a but, right?
I
always
question
everything.
Was it really okay?
Did I share – too much?
Did I come apart – too much?
Should I have even gone there?
When I put that vulnerability out there,
sometimes usually I feel like
I need to figure out a way to
pull it back
reign it in
lessen the intensity of it.
I feel that this time too.
But
at the same time
I also feel like
we finally made some progress.
If I hadn’t let go a bit,
even if it was (mostly) involuntary,
if what I felt
hadn’t shown on my face
and in my voice,
it probably wouldn’t have been received –
at least not in the same way.
We are so
completely
different
that sometimes,
it’s hard to even relate.
This
same
conversation
never went anywhere
before.
But this time,
I was acknowledged.
Days later,
what I said
was remembered,
and it mattered.
It seems like
the emotions registered –
to someone who is generally
as adverse or
awkward with feelings
as I am.
Maybe
that means
we aren’t as entirely opposite
as I thought.