I don’t sleep when we fight.
Even when we do resolve things,
I can’t manage to shed that feeling
of disconnection;
it attaches to me like a leech.
I want to let go.
I want to move on.
I want
need us to be okay again.
But I can’t get rid of the emotion that quickly.
With all my force,
it still refuses
to cooperate.
Maybe it requires
finer emotional motor skills
than I am capable of.
Or maybe (I think)
I feel things
too deeply.