Ago

Looking over
   what I have written,
           it’s so great to know
                         I am past those things
                         I have grown
                         I have improved.

I look back a year ago,
           and I was
                   am
                   still
                       just me.

As much growth
         as I perceive
              feel
              think
                    is there,
          I read over what has passed,
                    and
           I’m not sure anything
                 has actually
                     changed.

Maybe I just wish I could
                           would
                           did.

But the benchmarks
          moments
          changes
             seem

                    b
                        l
                u
                          r
                     r
                                  y

                           now
                              and I question
                                         what has actually
                                              changed –
                                           or if
                                                anything has.

Am I questioning
                    because I am insecure
                              (about the inaccurate,
                                            unquantifiable results)?
                 Or because
                           that change
                                     never really
                                          happened?