Held

‘She lets me hold her
She lets me know her
And she lets me come apart’
– “Simple Grace,”
   The Ruse

I’m not sure I’m so great at this
          with Jeff.

Am I there for him no matter what?
     Of course.

He can be together
          come apart
          relax
          freak out
          whatever.
   I'll be there.

I’m not always good at letting him
          hold me
          be there for me
          care for me,
     and I guess in a sense, also letting him
          know me.

He does – more than anyone.

But he could know me
                more,
         and (I think)
            I could even love him
                 more
                    if I let him
                              be there
                              care for me
                              and allow myself to just be
                                            held.