Brat

Usually if I am short with Jeff, it means my blood sugar is low. He learned this early on, and is very good at making sure I don’t go too long between meals. Of course, that is in his best interest too.

When I do wait too long,
     I start to improve once I have a few bites
          preferably something that contains protein.
                    Stability returns,
                    the shakes subside,
                    the fog in my brain lifts
                    and I’m not such a bi… brat.

But the food thing didn’t seem to fit yesterday. The timing didn’t add up and I don’t know what was wrong with me.

I was just
              off.

I was restless all day,
         on edge,
         snappy with Jeff,
              and I don’t have an obvious reason
                              for any of it.

Was it the remnants from a fight we had last weekend?
           A crappy time of the month?
           The increasing mucky heat outside?
           The choppy sleep I’ve had the last few nights?

Maybe a combination of those things,
     maybe something else entirely.
               I don’t know.

I just know
     I don’t want to take it out on Jeff.