Coordinates | (Over)thoughts

Coordinates

I just want to do
        what He designed me to do
                       and follow
                                  Him.

But I don’t know what that is
(or if I even get to have that)
and He seems to hide from me.

I have no direction.

When I try to figure out
     where to go,
               a current timeline
                    is required
                              for my coordinates to be accurate.

But what if I am missing something?

Or what if I screwed up
     so bad
           somewhere
                     that I am now in an alternate 1985*
                          and my decisions
                                 only branch
                             off
      from a made-up reality?

I am without a compass
                     course
                     aim
                         and I have no guidance.

I am
    m
     e
         a
        n
          d
          e
               r
              i
     n
              g
                     trying to follow
                                  an invisible God
      and His even more invisible
                                       plan.