Ask | (Over)thoughts

Ask

I’m not good at asking for what I need
or want.

I don’t want to intrude on other people’s time
energy
resources.

This is an issue that keeps surfacing in my life.
I keep getting little jabs
                           from books
                                  songs
                                  Jeff
                                  movies
                                  (The Holy Spirit?)
                                            that I don’t think I should ignore.

Lisa: So I was just wondering if there’s one general thing that you've found over the years to be generally true in a general way that would help anyone, with any situation?

Psychiatrist: That's a great question. Yes. I’d say, figure out what you want and learn how to ask for it.

Lisa: Okay… Those are both really hard.*

I just want to be able to figure out ways to do whatever it is I need so I don’t have to burden someone else.

“I immediately realized, however, that I didn’t want to be served. I didn’t want to be in a position where I had to ask for something and receive it as a gift.”**

I don’t expect others to suddenly read my mind and know what I need, but I also don’t want to appear lazy if I ask for something I could have figured out how to do myself.

“We’re lost ‘til we learn how to ask.”***

I suck at this.