Big decisions make me restless.
I don’t have clarity. No surprise that He isn’t clear with me.
I don’t have peace. No surprise there either.
But I’m not totally unclear
or not at peace.
It’s not a discernment problem
or a check in my intuition.
I’m just not sure.
But Jeff is. He has clarity.
I don’t know why he gets the clarity and I don’t. I don’t know why he has complete peace and I don’t.
I have faith that He has a plan, but I don’t know that plan, and I don’t want to make a bad decision. My tendency in those situations is to not make one at all – because I need more information to know for sure.
I just want the answer to be obvious.
I might need to be kicked in the head to know for sure
see the river part in front of me
see a bush burn but not catch on fire.
Jeff just has faith that it will work out.
Usually when we make decisions, we make them as a team.
We think about it
pray about it
decide together.
I think this is one of those times that we aren’t entirely in sync – but it’s not actually a bad thing.
I need to let him lead.
I need to defer to him and believe that, based on everything we know, we are making a good decision.
Sometimes I have trouble with the faith thing, so I need to rely on Jeff’s.
I need to let go and trust him.
And Him.