I had something(s) to say.
But now I’m not so sure I want to say it – or them. At least not yet.
The thoughts aren’t ready – yet. (Or I’m not ready. Yet?)
Once formed and almost out there, I don’t think they are really what I meant to say. I don’t take them the way I thought them at the time.
The thoughts are unclear. It would be bad communication. I could be nice and say poor. But most of the time, it’s just bad.
What I would have said used to mean something else, even just a few days ago. But now, the connotations are different. The situations have changed.
This is my life (so) much of the time.
I don’t want to hold back (too far). But based on my experiences (etc.), I would rather wish I had said something different – or at all – that time (or twelve) – than regret the things I have.