When can you trust your feelings? When are they reliable? How do you know when a feeling means something real, even if the (available) logic may not add up to something substantial?
When is it clear that God is telling you something –
that may not be obvious
defined
recognizable to others around you?
That there’s just something off about someone. And you can’t explain what that something is.
vs.
You feel something that isn’t.really.real?
I don’t want to rely on feelings.
So strong.
So subjective. (Usually.)
I don’t like when life isn’t logical.
When there isn’t an explanation.
When I cannot justify how I got from point B to point C. Or what even happened to point A.
Does this feeling come from my past experiences? Times with my friends? Teachings from my parents? Bosses? Trusted advisors? A revelation of sorts from (the often-elusive) God?
Some of my friends have an intuition that leads them somewhere
specific
real
true.
It’s tangible and other people still recognize it.
But there are situations where I cannot say something.
Or I already have.
Or I don’t stick around long enough to find out the results. The hairs on the back of my neck stick up and I’m gone. (If I can.)
But what if it’s not about me? What if I am perceiving an imperceptible danger that may be directed toward someone else?
How do I discern the source? Know what’s true?
Did He reveal this?
Did He make me feel this way?
Why is it not clear to everyone – sometimes anyone – else?
Examining myself, I don’t see transference – previous patterns, or relatable connections with other people in my memory.
And I hate this feeling. This neverending feeling.
I know what doesn’t fit in this context.
I know who doesn’t.
I think.
Is it discernment?
Intuition?
Transference?
Situational awareness?
Am I paranoid?
Crazy?
What do I do?
I pray that He will reveal His truth.
Or make this feeling (intuition/crap/whatever) go away.
And I pray that again.
And again.
Again.